0:00 [SPEAKER_02]: Listener, if you've read my recent posts, then you know I've been somewhat under the weather, that put me in a position of having to release a black label episode, somewhat last minute here on the 31st. 0:12 [SPEAKER_02]: The following black label is a from the ground up remake of one of the original black label episodes to put it frankly, listener. 0:20 [SPEAKER_02]: The original episode 0:25 [SPEAKER_02]: I would say that this particular coverage has been brought up the least, with my limited time to get you guys out of black label this month. 0:33 [SPEAKER_02]: I decided to use that original episode as a base, but now it is expanded with more research, more Ricardo Lopez audio, much tighter and better writing, better recording equipment, and the whole episode is tied together with a theme on stalking. 0:48 [SPEAKER_02]: That is something that stood out to me reading the original script. 0:52 [SPEAKER_02]: I simply covered the incident, but the episode seemed to lack any thesis. 0:57 [SPEAKER_02]: Now, I can confidently say that the episode I'm presenting to you today is 100 times better, and actually has a point. 1:05 [SPEAKER_02]: I will know here, having recorded this a couple days ago, my voice was coming off having a sore throat for close to two weeks. 1:13 [SPEAKER_02]: If it sounds raspy at all, I apologize to you for that. 1:17 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm actually not used to being under the weather for so long. 1:20 [SPEAKER_02]: and I hope you forgive me. 1:22 [SPEAKER_02]: Alright, I won't waste any more of your time. 1:25 [SPEAKER_02]: Let's get on with it. 2:07 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, that's a good, uh, that's a good rule of it, to make these tapes for one day, for her to say, to see the real fucking me, and why would she want to, because I am the man 2:33 [SPEAKER_06]: That's a fucking good plan on the fucker, that's a good plan. 2:39 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, why, another reason why to kill her. 2:41 [SPEAKER_02]: Stalking is a disorder that no longer allows you to make rational decisions. 2:45 [SPEAKER_02]: It causes you to believe that delusions are in fact reality. 2:49 [SPEAKER_02]: The obsession often leads to reckless illegal and even dangerous acts. 2:54 [SPEAKER_02]: To be feared or hated by the object of your obsession means you've become important to them. 2:59 [SPEAKER_02]: You have a relationship with that person. 3:01 [SPEAKER_02]: a relationship that can sometimes only end when one or both of you are dead. 3:06 [SPEAKER_02]: The darker side of fame and celebrity seems to be the relentless fans that won't allow you to do the normal things your former non-famous self could do. 3:13 [SPEAKER_02]: You can't grocery shop or have dinner in public without someone seeking a picture or an autograph. 3:19 [SPEAKER_02]: Now that we have video cameras attached to our phones, any type of privacy for a celebrity seems to be a thing of the past. 3:25 [SPEAKER_02]: As technology has increased and social media has developed, most celebrities have had to accept detaining of personal boundaries between themselves and the public. 3:33 [SPEAKER_02]: What happens when fandom turns into obsession? 3:36 [SPEAKER_02]: In the past, stalking was considered an anomaly, but it's considered the norm for celebrities. 3:42 [SPEAKER_02]: Are you even famous if you don't have a stalker? 3:44 [SPEAKER_02]: Well, there are many jokes and memes about stalking. 3:47 [SPEAKER_02]: It is in fact a very serious matter. 3:49 [SPEAKER_02]: I don't want to hurt anyone. 3:50 [SPEAKER_04]: Someone is broken into my house. 3:52 [SPEAKER_04]: I'm hiding in the closet. 3:53 [SPEAKER_04]: They're in the house. 3:54 [SPEAKER_04]: Oh. 3:54 [SPEAKER_04]: Yes. 3:55 [SPEAKER_04]: Yes, they are. 3:55 [SPEAKER_04]: I just saw them welcome to the attic. 3:57 [SPEAKER_03]: I have a man or woman. 3:59 [SPEAKER_04]: I think it was a man. 4:00 [SPEAKER_03]: What's your name, man? 4:02 [SPEAKER_04]: Sandra Bullock. 4:03 [SPEAKER_03]: All right, Sandra. 4:03 [SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to stand or phone with you to the office. 4:05 [SPEAKER_03]: Get there, okay. 4:06 [SPEAKER_04]: Okay. 4:07 [SPEAKER_03]: I want you to let me know if you hear anything at all. 4:10 [SPEAKER_04]: I'm in my closet. 4:11 [SPEAKER_04]: I don't think you can see anything. 4:13 [SPEAKER_04]: I have a safe door in my bedroom. 4:15 [SPEAKER_04]: And I've locked it and I'm locked in the closet right now. 4:18 [SPEAKER_03]: Okay, don't hang up. 4:19 [SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to be dispatched to police. 4:20 [SPEAKER_03]: Okay, don't hang up. 4:22 [SPEAKER_03]: Okay, give me weapons for your arms. 4:24 [SPEAKER_04]: I don't know. 4:24 [SPEAKER_04]: I'm not. 4:25 [SPEAKER_04]: I get someone banging on the door. 4:26 [SPEAKER_03]: Take your bedroom. 4:28 [SPEAKER_04]: Yes. 4:29 [SPEAKER_03]: Any time I flip the snout, I'll take the key and enter to the bedroom. 4:32 [SPEAKER_04]: Okay, close. 4:33 [SPEAKER_03]: I don't. 4:34 [SPEAKER_03]: We don't have a way to track where they are. 4:35 [SPEAKER_03]: I just know they've been in route for about four minutes. 4:39 [UNKNOWN]: Okay. 4:39 [SPEAKER_03]: Okay, there's lots of pulling up now. 4:41 [SPEAKER_03]: It's not about here. 4:42 [SPEAKER_04]: Okay, what? 4:43 [SPEAKER_03]: I'm sorry. 4:43 [SPEAKER_03]: It's not about there. 4:45 [SPEAKER_04]: Okay, and just have a mock-on out there right here. 4:47 [SPEAKER_03]: I'm going to let you know what they're going to do, okay? 4:50 [SPEAKER_04]: It's at some, I'll see if you get my tool. 4:51 [SPEAKER_03]: Are you knocking on the door? 4:52 [SPEAKER_04]: I hear them in the room. 4:54 [SPEAKER_04]: I hear them. 4:54 [SPEAKER_04]: I hear them. 4:55 [SPEAKER_04]: And tell them, I saw the guy go upstairs, and so I add it. 4:58 [SPEAKER_03]: It's very entry. 4:59 [SPEAKER_03]: So they've got an open door. 5:00 [SPEAKER_03]: They're coming in. 5:00 [SPEAKER_03]: Okay. 5:01 [SPEAKER_04]: I hear them. 5:02 [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah. 5:04 [SPEAKER_04]: Thank you. 5:05 [SPEAKER_03]: Thank you so much. 5:09 [SPEAKER_04]: Thank you so much. 5:14 [SPEAKER_02]: Stalking is frequently coupled with mental illness, and often more than one diagnosis. 5:20 [SPEAKER_02]: Experts have established five categories for stalkers. 5:24 [SPEAKER_02]: The rejected, the resentful, the intimacy seeking, the incompetent, and the predatory stalker. 5:31 [SPEAKER_02]: The first category, the rejected stalker, someone who has been rejected in a relationship and feels wounded and seeks retribution or vindication. 5:39 [SPEAKER_02]: The second is the resentful stalker. 5:44 [SPEAKER_02]: They are considered the least likely to act out in a violent manner. 5:48 [SPEAKER_02]: The third type is the intimacy-seeking stalker. 5:51 [SPEAKER_02]: This type is delusional and believes that they are loved or will be loved by the object of their infection. 5:56 [SPEAKER_02]: The fourth type is the incompetent suitor stalker. 5:59 [SPEAKER_02]: This type is often socially awkward, unable to decipher social cues and doesn't understand that their affection is in return. 6:06 [SPEAKER_02]: The fifth type is the predatory stalker. 6:08 [SPEAKER_02]: This type of stalker is motivated by sexual gratification, control, and even violence. 6:14 [SPEAKER_02]: Their objects of stalking often don't even know they are a potential victim. 6:18 [SPEAKER_02]: Experts believe the rejected hand the predatory stalkers are the two most likely types to act out in a violent manner towards their targets. 6:26 [SPEAKER_02]: However, according to an article in the New England psychologist, her forensic and police psychologist, Dr. Gerald Sweet, writes that celebrity stalking has its own special category. 6:36 [SPEAKER_01]: LAPD officers came to this neighborhood about 6.45 this morning to serve in the rest one for Josh Beckett. 6:44 [SPEAKER_01]: Take a look. 6:44 [SPEAKER_01]: This was the scene earlier this afternoon as on the SWAT team was called in after he threatened to kill the officers who tried to serve the arrest warrant and take him into custody. 6:55 [SPEAKER_01]: Now the suspect, according to the corner who confirms to eyewitness news, has been identified as 42-year-old Joshua Corbett. 7:06 [SPEAKER_01]: He was sentenced to five years probation. 7:09 [SPEAKER_02]: 1993, 17-year-old teenager Ricardo Lopez saw an interview with Icelandic Popstar, New York. 7:16 [SPEAKER_02]: An MTV show House of Style. 7:19 [SPEAKER_06]: Anyway, without getting sidetracked, New York has been an incredible part of my mind. 7:33 [SPEAKER_06]: Since 1993. 7:35 [SPEAKER_02]: Despite being 28 years old at the time, Bjork had a child like appearance. 7:42 [SPEAKER_02]: The scribe does an innocent fairy, Icelandic pixie, and magic elf, chat a youthful mannerism, and dressed with childlike whimsy. 7:49 [SPEAKER_00]: They were one of these spans, which was a happy, like an accident. 7:54 [SPEAKER_04]: But if the sugar cubes was a hobby, does this solo project of yours the beginning of a career of perhaps? 8:00 [SPEAKER_00]: Oh no, what I'm doing now is something I've been doing since I was 12. 8:06 [SPEAKER_00]: So this is probably what I feel more at home. 8:08 [SPEAKER_02]: Her music had an ethereal and mystical quality to it. 8:12 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo was immediately captured by her projected innocence. 8:16 [SPEAKER_02]: She encapsulates his ideal for her girlfriend. 8:20 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm a star of the crush. 8:23 [SPEAKER_06]: You remember that up with other obsession? 8:26 [SPEAKER_06]: am I embarrassed to admit now some obsession and sort of a half has called down times you know I've been okay with it other than just flared up the flaring usually comes about by you know reading an article that just 8:59 [SPEAKER_06]: I went to boarders, I purchased a magazine, a couple of magazines, and I got an enthusiastic about thing for more information about her and all that stuff, you know, because I did throw all the nice stuff, and now again, you know, I sent, I showed you to see all of these, 9:30 [SPEAKER_06]: all sorts of information where she lives, you know, again for two different things, a lot of graph posters. 9:37 [SPEAKER_06]: There's about as much information as I can get above. 9:48 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo Lopez was born on January 14th, 1975, in Mateo Veo Uruguay. 9:54 [SPEAKER_02]: Now long after his birth, his family immigrated to the United States and settled in the state of Georgia. 10:00 [SPEAKER_02]: Two years later, in 1977, his family became naturalized citizens. 10:05 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo and his two older brothers, George and Carlos, were practicing Jova's witnesses who were raised in the middle class family. 10:12 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo described his family as close-knit with traditional values and a solid sense of rain-wrong. 10:18 [SPEAKER_02]: When his parents moved back to Uruguay, they left Ricardo and the care of his two older brothers. 10:23 [SPEAKER_02]: His brother George started a pest control company in Florida and hired Ricardo as an exterminator. 10:29 [SPEAKER_02]: Instead of being grateful for the job, Ricardo was resentful and unhappy with his life. 10:34 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo, who was an artist, was unable to pursue his passion professionally due 10:41 [SPEAKER_02]: Despite having no formal training, Ricardo was able to create art, which he dedicated to his muse, Bjork. 10:47 [SPEAKER_02]: When Bjork failed to acknowledge his artistry, however, his intense feelings of love for her began to turn to hate. 10:54 [SPEAKER_02]: Her first Steve rejection caused Ricardo to embark on a nine-month journey where he documented their relationship in a series of video diaries. 11:02 [SPEAKER_02]: He developed a plan to destroy Bjork's beauty, and in return, she would watch his diaries and then know his name. 11:09 [SPEAKER_02]: She would come to understand her part and her responsibility and her fate. 11:13 [SPEAKER_02]: In his love obsession, I'll stalk her mind. 11:16 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo knew that way, Bjork would never forget the name, Ricardo Lopez. 11:21 [SPEAKER_06]: Look at his beautiful face. 11:24 [SPEAKER_06]: His cute, innocent, sweet and shy thing. 11:29 [SPEAKER_06]: Well, she's fucking a nigger. 11:33 [SPEAKER_06]: Can you believe that? 11:38 [SPEAKER_06]: Bucky, Naker, that's unacceptable. 11:53 [SPEAKER_02]: When I aspect of the case, the sometimes gets overlooked is the racism. 11:57 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo's love and admiration for Bjork, turned from love to hate, disgusted by her when he found out she was dating a black man. 12:04 [SPEAKER_02]: From this crime, he decided she must die. 12:10 [SPEAKER_06]: It's the 14th of today, I've been planning on past week and a half. 12:18 [SPEAKER_06]: It sounds crudgy, one of the reasons I have you is to document my progression elements. 12:28 [SPEAKER_06]: I want to send a package, a lightweight business, like folder, cardboard folder. 12:40 [SPEAKER_02]: that opens up. 12:43 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo decided to be work had to die for a transgressions, but he wanted her to die slowly, so she would have time to fixate on him. 12:51 [SPEAKER_02]: Imagine she would think of him every day, while she awaited her deadly faith by his hand in design. 12:56 [SPEAKER_02]: He planned to send a business package disguised as promotional materials, enclosed with a book, Tour London Home. 13:02 [SPEAKER_02]: His plan was for it to look professional in order to capture her interests since it involved using her music in the film version of the book. 13:09 [SPEAKER_02]: He all had out a book and designed a device inside of it that would inject Bjork with HIV-tainted blood as she opened it. 13:15 [SPEAKER_02]: This, Ricardo reasoned, would give her years to reflect upon her transgression against Ricardo. 13:21 [SPEAKER_02]: This idea pleased him. 13:22 [SPEAKER_02]: He couldn't mask his excitement. 13:24 [SPEAKER_02]: He named his device, the Master Blaster. 13:28 [SPEAKER_06]: The Master Blaster. 13:32 [SPEAKER_06]: That's the, uh, hyper-thermic needle. 13:36 [SPEAKER_06]: No poison. 13:38 [SPEAKER_06]: But upon the pressing, it's going to be two months. 14:00 [SPEAKER_06]: Those two hybrid generic needles are going to poke her thumbs. 14:09 [SPEAKER_06]: HIV-contempted blood. 14:12 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't have to get down from hunger. 14:14 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm gonna fucking get it up. 14:16 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm gonna pay her. 14:17 [SPEAKER_06]: Some money. 14:19 [SPEAKER_06]: And, uh, let's check the blood. 14:21 [SPEAKER_06]: Details later. 14:23 [SPEAKER_06]: Let's give him you the basics. 14:25 [SPEAKER_06]: And right now, without the details, I'm gonna have this sounds put in crazy. 14:30 [SPEAKER_06]: But it is not. 14:31 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, you, what is crazy? 14:32 [SPEAKER_06]: That sounds so. 14:36 [SPEAKER_06]: My number one ally. 14:39 [SPEAKER_06]: Because upon doing this, FBI, the news card on the yard, and one of those wilds kind of agencies is going to be public enemy number one or another one. 14:52 [SPEAKER_06]: But because I'm starting to be a media friend, I don't want the media. 14:58 [SPEAKER_06]: Because that's only the stability. 15:01 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, or, you know, put more pressure on those agencies. 15:10 [SPEAKER_06]: And I'm not that clever, as I would like to think I am young and I'm not that at much experience. 15:17 [SPEAKER_06]: So, you're going to have a team of profession, all their resources trying to track me down. 15:24 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm going to have a number of safety features, self-destructing, you know. 15:30 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm not going to get caught. 15:31 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, none get caught. 15:32 [SPEAKER_06]: Because playing tempo, this is the whole thing. 15:37 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm not about our pristine. 15:38 [SPEAKER_06]: Upon my knowledge of her urge, you know, positively getting the HIV virus. 15:46 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm glad to kill myself. 15:51 [SPEAKER_02]: Hypothetically, once Bjork was injected with HIV-tainted blood, which he planned to obtain from a sex worker, he imagined he'd become public enemy number one, and one and everyone, especially Bjork to know his name. 16:04 [SPEAKER_06]: Between Scalingard and the FBI, he knew they'd quickly discover his identity. 16:22 [SPEAKER_06]: So what that was just that said, it's all over us, especially now that I went into heavy duty in all the information, we're going to my sculpture now, I got that video process, it doesn't have you stolen this away and you know, do whatever my scoops, everything, you know, just 16:51 [SPEAKER_06]: Yeah, yeah, and that's my goal. 16:54 [SPEAKER_06]: The killer must get her from the desert. 16:57 [SPEAKER_06]: And more than anything, no one, my fucking existence. 17:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm gonna give her a cocktail of lies and all that, and on the tape, to deceive, not her, but the FBI. 17:11 [SPEAKER_06]: On my death, I'll have it, if you wish us, I'll have the real information sent to her, but she has to ask for it. 17:20 [SPEAKER_06]: It's not fucker. 17:29 [SPEAKER_02]: It didn't know why. 17:30 [SPEAKER_02]: In addition to punishing Bjork for having sex with black men, the most important part of Ricardo's plan was that she remembered his name. 17:37 [SPEAKER_02]: You know, that's a good, um, that's a good one of it to make these tapes for one day, for her to say, to see the real fucking me. 17:52 [SPEAKER_02]: As Bjork's Angel of Death, Ricardo fantasized about her watching his tapes and becoming fixated by his every word, this would be the only way he should be able to get to know him. 18:02 [SPEAKER_02]: He anticipated becoming the most important man in her life, because he would be the man who would eventually be responsible for taking her life. 18:09 [SPEAKER_02]: It is this goal that fueled him for the next nine faithful months. 18:13 [SPEAKER_06]: I do have an emotional problem, it's a chemical imbalance in my brain. 18:18 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm not a psychotic or anything like that, it's just, you know, I'm like a female type of type of type of thing. 18:24 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, this is like an insult of female, but my emotional level chemicals, you know, I know that which chemicals are, I started documentary at the brain. 18:34 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, they flare up and my mother a lot of times, you know, she should get sad and chill with like credits. 18:41 [SPEAKER_06]: She's not the one that kind of, you know, be crying crying, but she cried very easily. 18:47 [SPEAKER_06]: And I don't know what you know, I guess I got that from her. 18:52 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, I cried worse than a little kid, so that's it. 18:58 [SPEAKER_06]: acting like a little, you know, a 30-pound baby man, you know, I'm blue, it's like I shock myself not that, but I'm all talking about the letter. 19:10 [SPEAKER_06]: But when I made your reasons why I believe, I don't know if you can see in this light, I'll learn this in in the ninth grade in my, I saw a backstelerating biology class. 19:21 [SPEAKER_06]: If you notice, okay, I don't know if you can see my breast, okay, 19:27 [SPEAKER_06]: my breast and I know, as we studied in biology class, males are X, what is it, males are 19:52 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, chromosomes or males, X, X is female. 19:57 [SPEAKER_06]: The Y is what makes a male or male. 20:02 [SPEAKER_06]: OK, one that I'm very far in 56 males has a crop of corrosion defect called X, X, Y, OK. And that's what I have. 20:16 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, it's very, it's more common to people think, okay, one of the major things is having breasts and big nipples like this, they should picture nipples, it's not some, you know, strange delusion of mine, you know, I saw pictures and I read all about it, you know, and that's what it is, you know. 20:35 [SPEAKER_06]: you know, X-X-Y-N, and that has a lot to do with the form of just stuff like that. 20:40 [SPEAKER_06]: As we all know, females are different than males in their hormones, you know, that's one genetic. 20:46 [SPEAKER_06]: And I have, like, being out of that, that I'm an X-X-Y. 20:49 [SPEAKER_06]: I have an imbalance there, and it just, you know, just swick it. 20:57 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo filmed his video diaries mostly naked, he said he believed a lot of his emotional problems stem from a genetic condition that he suffered from, called gynecumastia, a condition that results in males having an X-X-Y chromosome will configuration, instead of the standard X-Y configuration. 21:13 [SPEAKER_02]: This chromosome will deviation, often resulted in creased weight, small stature, hand, undersized testicles and penis. 21:20 [SPEAKER_02]: It's this condition Ricardo said that caused him to have oversized nipples and breasts. 21:25 [SPEAKER_02]: Colonel also suffered from a condition known as micropenus, which, all combined, caused him for found feelings of self-loathing and inadequacy about his body. 21:34 [SPEAKER_02]: He believed he'd never be able to satisfy a woman, so he wasn't interested in trolling. 21:39 [SPEAKER_02]: His fear of rejection was too great, in addition to feelings of falcon theory order to the man 21:45 [SPEAKER_02]: His already intense feelings have loved for a quickly turned anger and rage when he center a piece of his art, but got no response. 21:54 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, this is like us, a tanning thing that... that she just happens to be with a fucking winner. 22:03 [SPEAKER_06]: Look at this sound up for me to do something. 22:06 [SPEAKER_06]: And the end of she's been with other guys before you think I'll eat that one more, but then I'm in the room. 22:11 [SPEAKER_06]: Listen, many times I try to, you know, try to think that all of the sex is not that big of a distance. 22:15 [SPEAKER_06]: Six is a big deal to me. 22:16 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm a virgin, I'm a rat, six, I've seen six. 22:19 [SPEAKER_06]: I've got tons of footage of sex. 22:21 [SPEAKER_06]: All different kinds, isn't that? 22:24 [SPEAKER_06]: But I'm a virgin, I've never been with a woman. 22:28 [SPEAKER_06]: I think it's a big deal of me, and coming from her with his background. 22:32 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, even bigger deal. 22:35 [SPEAKER_06]: If she's so casual, you're first to say this. 22:38 [SPEAKER_06]: You don't point for her and think as a dick, you know. 22:43 [SPEAKER_06]: But, you know, I'm busy shift, but many blacks and whites to put it tough. 22:50 [SPEAKER_06]: The reason why whites are so afraid of blacks taking their wins because, you know, like the same goes, you know, once you try to black, you ain't going back. 23:01 [SPEAKER_06]: And me, having seen many point of rapid movies, you know, yeah, most blood men have big things. 23:08 [SPEAKER_06]: That's true. 23:10 [SPEAKER_06]: That's very true. 23:11 [SPEAKER_06]: Do I find that threatening? 23:15 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, I think it's about that big, I mean. 23:20 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, in a way, yeah, but it's not like they're competing for the same thing. 23:24 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm competing for nothing. 23:26 [SPEAKER_02]: The depth of Ricardo's feelings were Bjork was so strong and his love so pure that he couldn't even bring himself to sexually fantasize about her. 23:34 [SPEAKER_02]: His feelings of inadequacy ran so deep that the thought of using her as fodder for sexual gratification was a repugnant notion for him. 23:43 [SPEAKER_02]: Okay, she's... See, I'm serious, human. 23:47 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, I don't get... 23:50 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't... 23:51 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't get this... Bitches are all f***ing out f***ing out f***ing out f***ing out. 23:57 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't do that. 24:00 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't stand like that. 24:02 [SPEAKER_06]: It makes you there be on you. 24:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I've put a lot on the carousel so high that you see. 24:09 [SPEAKER_06]: And I was thinking about this the other day. 24:12 [SPEAKER_06]: I've, you know, put her in a jealous status. 24:17 [SPEAKER_06]: I've never, I've never dreamed of fucking here. 24:22 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, the only thing I've ever fantasized about if anything was just bringing her a pleasure to satisfy her knee You know eating her out or something like that, you know, just giving her an entire pleasure just because you know fulfill your earthly needs You're not not not fucking here because I know that I'm not sufficient for that Okay, I have prostate pros and I have a little deep enough fat and I have no stamina 24:52 [SPEAKER_06]: you're pouring it, but to put it in touch, I mean, you learn a lot, you do a lot of a lot, especially eating pussy, and it's an end, technique's watching, you know, Bob Burke would show a real personal, it's like, yeah, you pick up a lot of things. 25:06 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, now that it's information that I've entirely used for. 25:20 [SPEAKER_06]: that way she doesn't have to go off and get that and I've never really fantasized too too much about being in a relationship with because I can't be in a relationship with anybody because of my emotional condition. 25:36 [SPEAKER_06]: So it's very hard to to pretend that I'm one of that you know. 25:41 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo insists his intentions towards Bjork were more paternal and in no way sexual in nature. 25:46 [SPEAKER_02]: He wanted to care for her handholder. 25:49 [SPEAKER_02]: According to him, he would never defile her child-like innocence by thinking of her in an impure way. 25:54 [SPEAKER_02]: He spent countless hours imagining himself holding her the way of father would hold it daughter. 26:00 [SPEAKER_06]: But um, my fantasy is this. 26:03 [SPEAKER_06]: We go back to Lincoln's son's son. 26:07 [SPEAKER_06]: We're all holding. 26:10 [SPEAKER_06]: The materials I have, for one, to be the single most important ones on the life. 26:19 [SPEAKER_06]: Well, I mean, part of the relevant attachment for me, playing a simple little back. 26:28 [SPEAKER_06]: I become a single important person and I start from a fact that I imagine a traveler from the future that comes with the news from the future and I, you know, it came exclusively to see her, you know, this is how I get there, right? 26:46 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, and this is not entirely why I keep there, I mean, okay, there's going to the future is very, very simple, going to the past is quite difficult. 26:56 [SPEAKER_02]: future of how you can go to the future of the coma. 26:59 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo had complex theories on time travel. 27:02 [SPEAKER_02]: In fact, he had an involved and extended fantasy. 27:06 [SPEAKER_02]: Traveling to the past when Bjork is still only 11 years old, in order for it to create a dependent attachment to him. 27:12 [SPEAKER_02]: He believed that science proved that men are attracted to childlike women because it brings about intense feelings to care for them and to protect them. 27:19 [SPEAKER_02]: He believed all women needed caregivers. 27:22 [SPEAKER_02]: His fantasy was so elaborate that it extended to all of Iceland becoming infatuated with him. 27:27 [SPEAKER_02]: He was convinced Bjork would find his theories just as fascinating once she found out he'd be the one responsible for her death. 27:34 [SPEAKER_02]: He also wished he could go back in time and prevent her from liking black men. 27:39 [SPEAKER_02]: While he was concerned about the past, he was still preoccupied with the future. 27:43 [SPEAKER_02]: In 1994, he'd sent Bjork a bomb that was intercepted by our security team and never reached her. 27:49 [SPEAKER_02]: He was worried that her current security team would make the connection between the 1994 bomb and his current device, the master blaster. 27:53 [SPEAKER_02]: He needed to make sure the new device couldn't be traced to his past efforts. 27:57 [SPEAKER_02]: Why? 27:57 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm very bitter. 27:57 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:58 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:58 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:58 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:58 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:58 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:58 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:59 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:59 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:59 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:59 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:59 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 27:59 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 28:00 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm... 28:01 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:01 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:01 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:01 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:02 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:02 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:02 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:02 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:02 [UNKNOWN]: I'm... 28:02 [UNKNOWN]: I'm... 28:03 [UNKNOWN]: I'm... 28:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:04 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:05 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:06 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:06 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:06 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm... 28:12 [SPEAKER_06]: This is in the way it's a big time like a revenge type of thing, I'm very bitter, I'm very sad, very angry, I'm very disillusion, more than anything else, disillusion. 28:29 [SPEAKER_06]: creative illusions of her even from the get going from the beginning. 28:32 [SPEAKER_06]: I liked her a lot and the fact that she was in a sweetness and then yes and rather than I learned. 28:37 [SPEAKER_06]: So it's not like a great illusion but it's just the last straw that's it. 28:41 [SPEAKER_06]: That's the last thing that that you know, the straws you know. 28:45 [SPEAKER_06]: of my last bit of hope that maybe you know she could change in this night and you know and even if you change what good would that do me here would do me in good actually technical except that it would make me feel better you know and that is in this way it's good yeah but um why am I doing this okay 29:06 [SPEAKER_06]: because when you take an act of revenge on someone and something, okay, and especially the long-planification of that revenge, getting even, there is a sort of a sadistic pleasure. 29:23 [SPEAKER_06]: Every time I think about I'm going to go back, okay, that's really not love by definition, because the love is to forgive. 29:38 [SPEAKER_06]: But to forgive, the other person has to earn that forgiveness. 29:46 [SPEAKER_06]: Really, she hasn't, but she doesn't have to earn anything, because I know what it's her. 29:51 [SPEAKER_06]: If I were an ex-boyfriend or something like that, then, you know, you know, she left me for a new year or something. 29:57 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, that feel the way I do about new year and stuff, then be a different story. 30:01 [SPEAKER_06]: But she's nothing to me and I'm nothing to her. 30:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, she has a lot to me, but I'm nothing to her. 30:08 [SPEAKER_06]: So why in this revenge? 30:12 [SPEAKER_06]: It's obvious like I said people do things. 30:15 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, primarily to feel good and to avoid feeling bad And this is obviously man. 30:22 [SPEAKER_06]: It's not really avoid me feeling bad because well in the way it is because Having the surveillance thing knowing that I don't even will hear even though it's going to mean you know I'm willing to pay the price of death for it 30:37 [SPEAKER_06]: In the selfish thing because I'm not considering the effect of my family, you know. 30:45 [SPEAKER_06]: Since I'm a very selfish person, I'm with accept my mother. 30:48 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm really not not concerned about their feelings and their, you know, their lives are going to be affected by my death and stuff like that. 30:58 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm a really little care for besides, because they can handle it. 31:01 [SPEAKER_06]: Besides, my mother, yeah, I know I'm looking at them, but I've talked enough about that already. 31:10 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm willing to give my life a short, you know. 31:15 [SPEAKER_06]: Not that my life has no value, I'll give it away for anything. 31:19 [SPEAKER_06]: It's not like I'm suicidal over anything, and this just happens to, you know, go, I'm not suicidal, I had plans, you know, future plans, and this and that, and you know, I was going to die and, you know, I'm again, but I still have, especially with my heart, this and I get a few things accomplished before I died and stuff. 31:43 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo feared going to prison because he didn't want to be raped or become, quote, a prison bitch. 31:49 [SPEAKER_02]: So he knew he'd have to kill himself before this could happen. 31:52 [SPEAKER_02]: However, he insisted he wasn't suicidal, just willing to make the ultimate sacrifice to ensure that Bjork was officially punished for dating black men. 32:01 [SPEAKER_02]: This was a slight he couldn't allow to pass. 32:03 [SPEAKER_02]: Even if dying was the cause to see it through, he didn't believe he was depressed because he used to be depressed and he knew what that felt like. 32:12 [SPEAKER_02]: This felt different. 32:13 [SPEAKER_02]: This felt euphoric. 32:15 [SPEAKER_02]: Bringing about Bjork's death was bringing him joy. 32:18 [SPEAKER_02]: As the days, weeks, and months passed, however, he began to feel imbivalent towards his plan. 32:23 [SPEAKER_02]: But one thought remained constant, Ricardo's fixation on black men, and how that caused his feelings of intense inadequacy. 32:31 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, it's just a real small dick. 32:33 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, even if I had a large ticket, it wouldn't do me much good, you know, because the situation is... 32:38 [SPEAKER_06]: But, uh, ever since, you know, this is how I feel now, but I, I remember, uh, this is not always, especially when I was cool and up, you know. 32:47 [SPEAKER_06]: I saw, you know, I had hopes and stuff like that with women and stuff, even though I was fat and this is not, but, you know, I still had hopes, and that's when it really became, uh, 32:56 [SPEAKER_06]: a parent, you know, my inferiority complex, you know, that's the way the beautiful white chick, you know, my type, you know, dark hair, green eye, you know, you know, my country is a lot of girls like that. 33:10 [SPEAKER_06]: And that's my thing. 33:11 [SPEAKER_06]: I like that. 33:12 [SPEAKER_06]: The beautiful beautiful woman, the beautiful face. 33:14 [SPEAKER_06]: That's all I know. 33:15 [SPEAKER_06]: And she's so beautiful. 33:16 [SPEAKER_06]: And they see well, you know, fucking nigga and you know, I don't already think and I was like, I thought he was going to be. 33:22 [SPEAKER_06]: Now in my mind, subconsciously thinking that she's got a fucking big dick. 33:25 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, she's going to start fucking urinating for a day. 33:28 [SPEAKER_06]: I made a bunch of like that and she's been with a nigga and they got a little dick. 33:30 [SPEAKER_06]: And it's going to already give you more problems. 33:33 [SPEAKER_06]: And the psychological fact, you know, is like, 33:36 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, next time it's the technical part of, you know, that big she's going to get you so that big cock in them, whether it be a black guy or a white guy or whatever, I always appreciate virgins. 33:52 [SPEAKER_06]: And in my time, you know, when I was young, you know, I would think, you know, I would love to marry a virgin because to be with a woman. 34:00 [SPEAKER_06]: If she was a virgin, whatever, okay, but not a lot of experience, but you've got to check a lot of experience. 34:05 [SPEAKER_06]: And you want to experience it. 34:07 [SPEAKER_06]: Even if you didn't have experience, you know, the actual fact that you were in there, you were crossing your Kissinger. 34:14 [SPEAKER_06]: And then you have to think, man, she's been with so many guys that she's been with. 34:18 [SPEAKER_06]: And that fact, the only just, you know, kill me inside, you know. 34:21 [SPEAKER_06]: I'll let him check that, you know, I wanted to check when I was in that age, you know, what is he? 34:26 [SPEAKER_06]: No experience, and I was her first and she was my first, you know, we could, you know, be together and you know, go against this world, you know, I'll tell you everything. 34:36 [SPEAKER_02]: By the time you went. 34:37 [SPEAKER_02]: After his concern, brother George contacted their mother about Ricardo's strange behavior. 34:42 [SPEAKER_02]: She began to worry as well. 34:44 [SPEAKER_02]: She called her son-ass, if she wanted to move back to your Uruguay so he could be closer to her. 34:49 [SPEAKER_02]: When he declined her offer, she told him never to buy a gun, because she was worried he might kill himself. 34:54 [SPEAKER_02]: He didn't want to hurt his mother, so this made him rethink his plan. 34:58 [SPEAKER_02]: He agreed to visit her for a few weeks. 35:00 [SPEAKER_02]: Maybe punishing Bjork wasn't worth it anymore. 35:08 [SPEAKER_06]: I saw a thinking that week, especially, so you know what, she's not worth the trouble. 35:17 [SPEAKER_06]: I put it like in balance, who should I that I gave my attention to, your mother, or complete stranger? 35:27 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, of course, your mother. 35:30 [SPEAKER_06]: I put it more into perspective. 35:34 [UNKNOWN]: No. 35:35 [SPEAKER_06]: as far as my plans that I had with her noticed how he used the word had. 35:43 [SPEAKER_06]: It has been temporarily postponed. 35:46 [SPEAKER_06]: Why? 35:47 [SPEAKER_06]: Well, partially because of the worrying about my mum, right now my first attention is a mum mother. 35:54 [SPEAKER_06]: So that, in fact, in a couple of weeks, I'm going to be going to Uruguay to visit her. 36:00 [SPEAKER_02]: After planning a visit with his parents, Ricardo seemed to have given up on the idea of killing Bjork. 36:05 [SPEAKER_02]: He'd recently watched a gang bang video that included black men. 36:09 [SPEAKER_02]: Notice that it didn't really bother him. 36:11 [SPEAKER_02]: Now he seemed okay with women having sex with men of different colors. 36:15 [SPEAKER_02]: It's important to note that there was a three month lapse between videos. 36:19 [SPEAKER_02]: With a video before his trip to Uruguay, taking place on March 3rd, 1996, perhaps there was a sincere desire on Ricardo's part to re-engage with his life and family. 36:30 [SPEAKER_02]: However, it is sometimes common for people contemplating suicide to visit family. 36:35 [SPEAKER_02]: It is a way to test their level of seriousness and it also gives them the opportunity to make peace with their decision and to stay there goodbyes. 36:42 [SPEAKER_02]: Often when people have made their final decision to die, they will exhibit moments of happiness since the decision has been cemented. 36:48 [SPEAKER_02]: It can be a sense of relief to no longer struggle with imbevolence. 36:52 [SPEAKER_02]: In the video after the three-month laps, Ricardo does appear to be quite animated and happy about seeing his family, but he also finds himself reconsidering his feelings of forgiveness towards New York. 37:04 [SPEAKER_06]: Right now, I'm like living my fantasy in the way. 37:08 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm not scared. 37:09 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm very involved in what I'm doing, as you can see. 37:17 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm going to do it. 37:23 [SPEAKER_06]: Someone different the eighth thing I'm afraid of not going to be able to do that. 37:31 [SPEAKER_06]: Why? 37:31 [SPEAKER_06]: Because I Don't have AIDS that I know To teen it is going to be very very Very difficult Very complicated to be sure a successful Timlish so what am I left with right now? 37:51 [SPEAKER_06]: I have two options 37:53 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm a 85% using hydro park S. Looking at the oil page right there, there's a lot of oil. 38:04 [SPEAKER_06]: They can be one of the ones. 38:05 [SPEAKER_06]: And this is how I want to conclame each up to the rough. 38:08 [SPEAKER_06]: And when you're doing second feedies in a room though, section where you're talking about hydro park S. 38:12 [SPEAKER_06]: I drew his water because it's a gasses mix with water because it comes in yellow, pale, yellowish, color, it needs metal, it's lashing, so I have to find out which plastic's, what is this all leading up to? 38:41 [SPEAKER_06]: Well, I don't know, y'all. 38:42 [SPEAKER_06]: John Douglas director will not direct about the FBI's former leading pro-filer who called my control about psychosis. 38:59 [SPEAKER_06]: But again, about the FBI, part evidence. 39:05 [SPEAKER_06]: That's all for today. 39:07 [SPEAKER_06]: I got it. 39:10 [SPEAKER_06]: A little bit of a gray hair. 39:17 [SPEAKER_06]: Again, self-explanatory. 39:19 [SPEAKER_06]: Star stalkers. 39:22 [SPEAKER_06]: Because it's in my jeans. 39:24 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay. 39:25 [SPEAKER_06]: I read two of those books. 39:28 [SPEAKER_06]: The crime lab won the hard evidence. 39:31 [SPEAKER_06]: Just seem to have won. 39:32 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, this is... 39:33 [SPEAKER_06]: This is something that's come up. 39:35 [SPEAKER_06]: Something major to happen. 39:37 [SPEAKER_06]: Me? 39:37 [SPEAKER_06]: You're majoring here. 39:38 [SPEAKER_06]: The next tools. 39:38 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't know if I'm going to be alive. 39:40 [SPEAKER_06]: And September. 39:42 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't know that. 39:44 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't know anything. 39:44 [SPEAKER_06]: Think about suicide. 39:46 [SPEAKER_06]: Of course, you know my philosophy. 39:49 [SPEAKER_02]: I'm not going to die. 39:49 [SPEAKER_02]: And this is me. 39:50 [SPEAKER_02]: Of course. 39:52 [SPEAKER_02]: July 14, 1996. 39:53 [SPEAKER_02]: Everything changed so quickly for Ricardo when he read an article on Spin Magazine that New York was planning to marry a man named Goldie, a black musician. 40:03 [SPEAKER_02]: He'd also changed the plan from infecting her with HIV-tainin blood to setting her a device that would disfigure her by springing her with acid instead. 40:10 [SPEAKER_02]: He thought that by disfiguring her, she would have to spend the rest of her days thinking about him and learning all she could about him. 40:17 [SPEAKER_02]: He quit his job with his brother. 40:19 [SPEAKER_02]: It's been all of this time accomplishing this goal. 40:22 [SPEAKER_02]: Force savings run out. 40:23 [SPEAKER_02]: It was also concerned his family might be onto his plan and try to derail him from completing his life's purpose. 40:31 [SPEAKER_06]: I just can't think about it, you know. 40:34 [SPEAKER_06]: I can't see myself getting a job. 40:39 [SPEAKER_06]: Yeah, I get it's possible, but I'm here. 40:42 [SPEAKER_06]: My name's going to be R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R-R. 40:44 [SPEAKER_06]: Besides, this is like a... Judd done was here, Robert Rester, the other, I have been a pro-fogger. 40:52 [SPEAKER_06]: The whole serial killers are such. 40:56 [SPEAKER_06]: They fantasize about building their things, and usually takes something called stressor. 41:03 [UNKNOWN]: Lost with a load one, lost with a job. 41:06 [SPEAKER_06]: You know, I should like that. 41:08 [SPEAKER_06]: I've got to think about, I don't know when they're going to listen to this movie by phone, but I have to call my mother for him, I don't know how I have to tell a true creature. 41:23 [SPEAKER_06]: Because if you can't just be in the watch, it would be weird. 41:24 [SPEAKER_06]: Why don't come over here, like they told me before, bigger anything more? 41:31 [SPEAKER_06]: They both shit down there, I can't. 41:34 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm definitely in the video team, leave a legacy, I've had a beautiful special effects for you. 41:44 [SPEAKER_06]: I can't be your clapping, so thank you. 41:49 [SPEAKER_06]: Oh, I don't want to. 41:51 [SPEAKER_06]: The fans become world-working. 41:54 [SPEAKER_02]: While listening to Celine Dion, Ricardo began to worry that the FBI would quickly close in on him as their suspect. 42:01 [SPEAKER_02]: He believed his answer bomb would bring out all the most important law enforcement. 42:05 [SPEAKER_02]: He'd been studying their techniques and purchased several books, including mine hunter by famed FBI Profiler John Douglas. 42:12 [SPEAKER_02]: As well as books on serial killers, Written by Robert Ressler, another well-known FBI Profiler. 42:17 [SPEAKER_02]: He'd read that often people experience a stressor in their lives before committing crimes. 42:22 [SPEAKER_02]: Evely of his dresser was quitting his job, because he no longer worked for his brother, he was concerned his family would attempt to try to take him back home with them to Uruguay where they could monitor him closely. 42:34 [SPEAKER_02]: His family was close and supportive. 42:36 [SPEAKER_02]: He knew his biggest challenge would be pulling off his plans without their knowledge. 42:40 [SPEAKER_02]: While Ricardo had deep feelings of shame and a masculine over his physical condition, he also suffered from grandiose thinking 42:49 [SPEAKER_02]: He relished his ability to manipulate and confuse his family, mental health professionals, and even law enforcement officials in their attempts to foil his plans. 42:59 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo's family expressed their deep concern for his while being, reportedly Ricardo made threats to murder his brother and former employer George, as well as George's wife and children, prompting both brothers, George and Carlos to visit Ricardo and his small Hollywood Florida apartment. 43:14 [SPEAKER_02]: He quickly hit the gullyd purchased and the various tools he'd used to make the acid bomb. 43:18 [SPEAKER_02]: When his brother threatened to call the FBI on him, Ricardo appeared to calm down, agreeing to go to a appointment they had made for him with a psychiatrist. 43:27 [SPEAKER_02]: He kept the appointment, but in a minute later in his video diary that he lied on the forms and wasn't honest with a psychiatrist. 43:34 [SPEAKER_02]: I went to the psychiatrist, Thursday, I told him my problem. 43:41 [SPEAKER_06]: As far as crying, he shit, you know, told him what I thought that I had in the 43:48 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, I think you have this none in that took a DM SV 3 or something as a written test 564 questions to probe into your mind and stuff. 44:03 [SPEAKER_06]: Of course, it wasn't 100% honest. 44:06 [SPEAKER_06]: Can't be, but I mean, I just stated basically what I said. 44:12 [SPEAKER_06]: Very interesting the way the questions are asked, but I basically just stated that 44:18 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't like people, I slate myself, come to make some vacation skills are limited. 44:25 [SPEAKER_06]: Just in that, I get a little depressed, I accept from sleeping disorder. 44:31 [SPEAKER_06]: are all true, a little true, but I stayed away from the hopelessness of the severe feelings of guilt and suicidal thoughts, stayed away from that, stayed away from the psycho materials far as the hallucinations and a lot of that's not true, you know, of course it couldn't say anything about killing people and nothing, you know, it's not, you know, so I did 45:01 [SPEAKER_06]: a little bit what i'm taking is a serotonin inhibitor that uh the markably today i didn't test myself say shoo shoo as negro 45:20 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo was prescribed with Phanx on Conafin, but he forgot to take them with any regularity. 45:26 [SPEAKER_02]: He believed the medicine was working and making him feel smooth. 45:29 [SPEAKER_02]: However, just a few days later, he was convinced it was making him more aggressive, because now he continually felt angry. 45:36 [SPEAKER_02]: His video diary reflects these changes as well. 45:39 [SPEAKER_02]: In his September 6th, 1996 tape, he appears to have a lot of renewed anger towards women. 45:46 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm gonna fuck her up bro, fuck her up, listen to me, Bjork, you're gonna get fucked up. 45:52 [SPEAKER_06]: You are going to get fucked up and help your son get fucked up, and I really don't give a fuck about gold because you can't blame a dog for being a dog, you know, you can't blame, you can blame somebody for loving a dog, but you can't blame a dog for being a dog. 46:07 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't give a fuck up, maybe if you get splashed to, hey, great, it doesn't, I don't give a fuck. 46:13 [SPEAKER_06]: Her son, technically I would rather her son get all fucked up with the acid. 46:19 [SPEAKER_06]: than her, because if her somewhere to get all fucked up with the acid, she will feel good, you're more guilt and it will be fucking even sweeter. 46:28 [SPEAKER_06]: Hey, casualties are well, I don't give a fuck. 46:30 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't believe a child deserves to live any more than the adult. 46:34 [SPEAKER_06]: To me, it's the same shit. 46:37 [SPEAKER_06]: So fuck them all. 46:38 [SPEAKER_06]: Fuck them all. 46:40 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, and even if it doesn't go on for if it fails to go off whatever or if in the post stuff I ended up shooting myself and coming up a few other people Whatever she's in the here about it. 46:52 [SPEAKER_06]: She's gonna hear about it. 46:53 [SPEAKER_06]: It's just it worked I mean if it goes to her house and you can get it get sent back to the lecture Hey, she's gonna fucking hear about it. 47:03 [SPEAKER_06]: She's not is you gonna hear about it. 47:05 [SPEAKER_06]: Yep, yep She certainly is I mean 47:10 [SPEAKER_06]: Yeah, it's a win-win situation. 47:15 [SPEAKER_06]: As long as I got my gun, I fucked the world. 47:17 [SPEAKER_06]: You got to, you got to promise me. 47:22 [SPEAKER_06]: You fucking just killed somebody. 47:24 [SPEAKER_06]: You fucking just killed somebody. 47:25 [SPEAKER_06]: Keep my new life before I dig my own life. 47:28 [SPEAKER_06]: Wow, man. 47:29 [SPEAKER_06]: I'll be like, oh, oh, oh. 47:34 [SPEAKER_06]: to see in the beauty of a revolver is that it won't jam on you in comparison as many times as an automatic semi-automatic. 47:45 [SPEAKER_06]: So because I've read it in the book, or if I see your semi-automatic jam the word ever, let me plus my dad, he asks somebody. 47:53 [SPEAKER_06]: Yes, a fucking military man, which is better semi-automatic or a lover and the military man who's always life and you're a wife Life has been around guns. 48:03 [SPEAKER_06]: This is a revolver because revolver won't jam on you. 48:06 [SPEAKER_06]: Hey, and I've heard countless countless countless fucking stories, all right That's why this fletcher guy got killed by RZ Jackson 48:17 [SPEAKER_06]: Because it's going jammed and the guy thought it was a stark pistol and then he came out of him and then it on jambed or whatever and boom Even though I don't know if I was a ruler, but nonetheless No, I think that was a As soon as I arrived Nonetheless, this is our better Oh, no, no, no, only will I have that if anything it fails. 48:37 [SPEAKER_06]: I'll have my exact online You know 48:43 [SPEAKER_06]: I'll slice my, one of my throat with anything. 48:46 [SPEAKER_06]: Slice my wrist, slice my throat, and really, really, really see the power of having a gun. 48:49 [SPEAKER_06]: Alright, I think that'll give me the confidence, and it will help all hell breaks loose, you know, and I'll say, fuck it, you know, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, boom, 49:09 [SPEAKER_02]: Ricardo was just days away from his goal, while the method and possibly the target had changed over the last nine months, the purpose had not. 49:16 [SPEAKER_02]: Whether he wound up disfiguring Bjork or her son, the end result would be the same. 49:21 [SPEAKER_02]: Bjork would forever know his name. 49:24 [SPEAKER_02]: He wanted Bjork to watch the 20 videos he had recorded to let or know who he was and why he was important to her life. 49:30 [SPEAKER_02]: He wanted to be seen and he wanted to be heard. 49:34 [SPEAKER_02]: He tested the device twice to determine its accuracy. 49:37 [SPEAKER_02]: It was now show time. 49:39 [SPEAKER_02]: He packaged up his acid bomb and prepared to have its set via FedEx. 49:43 [SPEAKER_02]: He took his gun with him in case the FBI was on to him and ready to confront him. 49:48 [SPEAKER_02]: The package would take five days to get from Florida to be York's home in London. 49:52 [SPEAKER_02]: He was hoping to hear something on the news, but was worried the FBI would get to him before he had a chance to kill himself. 49:58 [SPEAKER_02]: So, he reasoned, he had to go through with the suicide before he could allow that to happen. 50:04 [SPEAKER_02]: He filmed himself with his last meal, which appeared to be Domino's pizza. 50:08 [SPEAKER_06]: He danced around and celebration of his success, but then he turned serious. 50:23 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm gonna paint my face with a green, and a red, like... 50:38 [SPEAKER_06]: That way, you know, the Jordanian shit finds me, you know, it won't be that much of a shock at, it'll be a deep personalized stuff. 50:49 [SPEAKER_06]: Everything I look weird is fucking, and I had a hope of the clipping mechanism, and I'll make it seem my real unrealistic. 50:55 [SPEAKER_06]: So that'll help with the traumatization program. 50:56 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, I'm real sorry. 50:58 [SPEAKER_06]: Uh, I'm really sorry for what I'm gonna do to them. 51:03 [SPEAKER_06]: I mean, not that much because I'm still gonna do it. 51:05 [SPEAKER_06]: Bye, uh. 51:07 [SPEAKER_06]: I am real sorry for what other pain sometimes, you know, I hang out there. 51:12 [SPEAKER_06]: This would be so much easier for what you're living by myself and some state nobody in the whole team. 51:17 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't have any family then. 51:20 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm a problem order. 51:22 [SPEAKER_06]: Turn into a cycle. 51:24 [SPEAKER_06]: Serial killers, I'm shit. 51:27 [SPEAKER_06]: One thing is very, very important to stress this extremely important. 51:32 [SPEAKER_06]: I am not doing this. 51:35 [SPEAKER_06]: Am I killing myself? 51:37 [SPEAKER_06]: Okay, this is the thing. 51:38 [SPEAKER_06]: I'm on the mission. 51:40 [SPEAKER_06]: My mission is not to fuck up you, okay? 51:44 [SPEAKER_06]: My main objective is to end my life. 51:47 [SPEAKER_06]: Now, as I'm going down, I'm gonna screw her up. 51:51 [SPEAKER_06]: Whether I screw her up or not, my family's gonna suffer. 51:55 [SPEAKER_06]: So, you know, I don't think it's fair for my family to be so free and have heard not to. 52:00 [SPEAKER_06]: So, now it's a equal share, that's the thing. 52:04 [SPEAKER_06]: So remember, I'm not doing this, I'm not telling myself to a wood capture This is not because I can't take it, you know I'm guilty, fuck no I'm dying because you know The fear of living sees that up dying So, I'm so glad this was going to get a stress that In my suicide, I don't know if I should have suicide No, because you take this world's fucking video tape I'm still thinking how I'm going to do the video tape 52:35 [SPEAKER_06]: I wish you would get it, you know. 52:42 [SPEAKER_06]: As come, I'm not going to be thinking, wow, why would she take an interest in me after me doing this to her? 52:49 [SPEAKER_06]: But... 52:53 [SPEAKER_06]: The obvious question that comes to mind. 52:57 [SPEAKER_06]: And most of you can see me there. 53:00 [SPEAKER_06]: The obvious question I have that will come into anybody's mind is, who would do this? 53:04 [SPEAKER_06]: Why don't fuck they do this? 53:07 [SPEAKER_06]: I'll leave very much in the mystery. 53:13 [SPEAKER_06]: This will be very brief. 53:17 [SPEAKER_06]: I don't know, one of my last wishes. 53:21 [SPEAKER_02]: Just to fuck you up. 53:24 [SPEAKER_02]: his appearance changes as he seems to distance himself from what he has to do. 53:29 [SPEAKER_02]: He cuts his hair with scissors, and later, the piercier shaved his head bald. 53:34 [SPEAKER_02]: He paints his face with green and red paint. 53:36 [SPEAKER_02]: He is no longer recognizable, even to himself. 53:41 [SPEAKER_02]: I really was a brother broke the camera's back. 53:45 [SPEAKER_05]: Even had my initial mission. 53:47 [SPEAKER_05]: Even had my initial mission been completed your death as your soul will learn was not in my intention. 53:56 [SPEAKER_05]: You will give me as your pain and exchange for my family despair of my soul's head of adventure. 54:02 [SPEAKER_05]: My death has really been less related to my obsession with you. 54:05 [SPEAKER_05]: It's my unwillingness to partake in this world for various reasons. 54:11 [SPEAKER_05]: I missioned always related to you because it is my last joy. 54:16 [SPEAKER_05]: Honestly, the Roman state was ever having caught my eye. 54:20 [SPEAKER_05]: I really should not blame you for not being what I wanted you to be. 54:24 [SPEAKER_05]: But human history is filled with accounts of what one should not do. 54:30 [SPEAKER_05]: And despite my despised of them, I too shall join them. 54:34 [SPEAKER_05]: Life is deliciously and fair to all of you. 54:37 [SPEAKER_05]: You being a mother there's nothing more to take from you than your son's innocence. 54:42 [SPEAKER_05]: I will jump at the chance of disembowing Sendry But of course not before screwing hammering his knee Tabs to a bloody hole 54:52 [SPEAKER_05]: And in your presence, Tehran to his flesh, to the sumous flesh, to become one with his flesh, to enter new world's world. 55:00 [SPEAKER_05]: Drupane becomes my sacred kingdom. 55:02 [SPEAKER_05]: But I am a realist, I will just bury a bulletin, I was in, it's easier. 55:07 [SPEAKER_05]: I must remind you that I have incredible patience, I will not care if it takes another three years. 55:13 [SPEAKER_05]: I really would rather not have to start following a word. 55:17 [SPEAKER_05]: You will run again, but I will. 55:20 [SPEAKER_05]: If I have to, I'm not crazy, I just pretend to be there. 55:23 [SPEAKER_05]: So when they love to use this, I'm going to destroy your pain, my family pain, my death, and that's cool. 55:33 [SPEAKER_02]: In this September 12th, 1996, in final video, he prepares his final artwork. 55:38 [SPEAKER_02]: A blank canvas with the best of me, written in black bold letters. 55:43 [SPEAKER_02]: He leans it against the wall, right behind his head. 55:46 [SPEAKER_02]: and appears he intends for his blood and brain matter to end up on the canvas. 55:51 [SPEAKER_02]: It is his final art piece to be orc. 55:54 [SPEAKER_02]: His most personal piece yet. 55:56 [SPEAKER_02]: He misses. 55:59 [SPEAKER_06]: OK, it's time. 56:05 [SPEAKER_06]: Got my gun? 56:07 [SPEAKER_06]: I just want to say that our last words or my last words will fall through all of my last words and I'll pop the work and earn your nuclear loving self, the chances of being in terms of successful. 56:26 [SPEAKER_06]: Like I said before, I want nothing to tell on it, but nonetheless it being out there I consider it a great venture. 56:37 [SPEAKER_06]: And the less I was going to die anyway, that'd be cause of her, but rather because of her own reasons. 56:48 [SPEAKER_02]: The last song you will hear is that it'd be your work song entitled, I remember you. 56:57 [SPEAKER_02]: As he mouths the words to the song, he begins to shake. 57:00 [SPEAKER_02]: He takes a series of deep breaths, places the barrel of the gun inside his mouth. 57:06 [SPEAKER_02]: And... 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